What a week!

I sat here last Tuesday and wrote a post. On Wednesday morning, I went to see the doctor for my 2 week check up. I then went to the pharmacy and the grocery store. I talked on the phone on the way home and came in thinking things were ok. Bob and I ate some chicken strips and were sitting here when it all turned upside down. I started having pain in my upper left shoulder and then it would hurt down in my chest bone. It was a lot like a bad cold. The back of my neck hurt too. It went on for a bit. I called my mother in law and said if it doesn't get better, we may have to go to the hospital. About 15 minutes later, we were on our way. We got there and it finally calmed down. They were going to do one more CT scan and probably let me come home when my blood pressure dropped and I passed out as I flopped in the wheel chair. They ended up keeping me over night. The next morning, my doctor came in and told me that the blood work showed a heart attack. How crazy is that. So, he went and made calls. They transferred me to TJ Sampson in Glasgow, KY. I went straight to ICU. They did an ultrasound and could see some issues. I was set up for the heart cath the next day. They took me in for the heart cath and found an artery with 99% blockage. They went ahead and inserted two stents at that time. That was my Wednesday thru Friday. WOW! I got out of the hospital on Monday. It is Tuesday and I'm home. I am absolutely blown away and shocked. I can't imagine having a heart attack. I can't imagine having someone inside my heart. It was hard enough to think of someone being in my stomach. I just don't know what to think of it all. It was fast and overwhelming. I had EXCELLENT care. My little Burkesville hospital is always amazing. They spoil me with great care. I feel blessed to have them. TJ Sampson was awesome. They took me in scared and crying. I left feeling like life can be good again. Now, with all that said, the real story is........

God is the MAN! God was with me the entire time. He took care of me, my husband, my boys, my Bob, my other family members and friends. They were all there for me. I had such an awesome group of prayer warriors, EVERYWHERE!!!

People could look at this in many lights. I choose to see it as a blessing. I know things are going to get better. I don't know how long I have here. I might be here for 2 days, 5 years or 20 or more. I want to make it good. I know who I am in God! That is the most important thing. I know that God is keeping me here for a reason. I just want to listen and do what He wants.

Lonely and happy

My boys are gone for the week to camp. I took them yesterday morning at 8:30. It is amazing how quiet the house can become. I didn't sleep a lot last night. I woke up yucky this morning. I am hoping tonight goes better. We have had a lot of crazy days lately. I try not to write a lot when I am down. I remember Maxwell saying you are either an adder or a subtractor. I don't want to subtract from anyone. I always want to add to the lives of others. So, I make the choice to stay possitive and know that this too shall pass. God is good. He has never let me down and NEVER will. I know He has it under control. I am going to do my part and let Him do the rest.
Bob is helping me a lot. He teaches me so much. It is amazing to see the unconditional love that he gives. He loves me if I am pretty, if I am ugly, if I smell good or if I smell bad. I really need to be more like that. Of course, that is a great example of our Heavenly Father. I know that God sent Bob to teach me lessons. Thank you Lord.
I have been home all day alone. It has felt lonely at times. I thank God for the opportunity for my boys. I am praying that God will blow them away with His awesome Spirit and make changes in them that will be for life. I still can't believe that God sent them to us. I feel so blessed.
Better go and see what I can get in to.